Too Selfish

I find that the most difficult task is determining your path in life. I am too scared to move forward and too tired to go back to the old....Every move feels as if I am losing my way back to the new me.....Damn...did I just find myself lost again.....I've been through this before...found and grounded myself before.....discovered my path and decided on steps that would propel me towards my goals......As I moved on this path I saw faces and heard conversations that were foreign to me...so odd, that when I discussed it with others...thinking we were going the same direction and seeing the same things..no one understood......leaving me lost again.....in silence....trying to discover what is right in front of me...a secret society of disciplined thought that I can't seem to master unless I leave the very environment that has been my shelter for so long.....shifting from exhausted giving to disciplined boundary setting......each step I take...all I hear myself asking is....am I too selfish?